I just can’t stand myself… I rotted at home for 2 entire days doing nothing but eat, watch TV and play games. This is just simply not constructive at all… I am turning into a pig…

To get myself going again, I decided to go to school to do some work. Got there at 11, settled down, did housekeeping and napped till 4. Don’t you just hate it when u get calls when you sleep? And they just choose the right time to call: the precise hour that you decide to catch some winks. I got it since NS: people just have to call when I sleep, even in the middle of the night. I guess there must be some curse at work here. Hmmm…

I am saddened by the fact that I have to reject a temp job offer by my previous boss at Amex. It’s a good paying job with a good boss, plus the job is really interesting. On top of that, it’s on a project basis and the duration is just nice for the holidays, not to mention that I didn’t have to look for it. Too bad I got other matters at hand… So bye-bye to the Amex job. (Wonder if she will approach me again for future projects…)

And I dyed my hair!!! Too bad can't try a gaudy colour this time...

talked more trash @ 4:22:00 PM

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The paper today killed me…

I am torn, tattered and beaten….

To make a cup of Ultimate Despair (serves one):
Add in a dash of insomnia, a sparing amount of disturbed sleep, a barrage of unsolved problems (make sure it is of different varieties), lack of concern and consideration (to get from others), and a heap of responsibilities to a person who is mentally torn, tattered and beaten. Shake well and pour out the woes on an unvisited blog.

To complete, add an exam paper on the following day. Add a meeting straight after the paper as dressing to the already pained concoction. Serve chilled to the bone.

The concoction is found to be a slow lethal poison which is really effective on humans. Research work is still being carried out to find the antidote.

talked more trash @ 5:53:00 PM

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I received quite a bit of encouragement today.

First, it was Wilson, whom I used to study with the last semester, who asked me out for dinner. Though he was late (as usual), he was good company coz he is a very good target to suan… Hahaha….

After that, it was Jiawei, who crapped with me over MSN, and offered me really good advice. Thanks for the offer to help dude, it’s the gesture that counts.

Last of all, it was Jeremiah, who hasn’t talked to me on MSN for a very very long time. His words were simple:

Psychlon Froggies: What is the daily duty?
2 more days only for your core
Psychlon Froggies: What is the daily duty?
hang in there buddy

A little encouragement really makes me go the mile…

I wanna say a big THANK YOU all for the motivation. I really need it for this time.

Thanks.    

talked more trash @ 1:14:00 AM

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The first paper is finally over. I cannot say for sure that I have done justice to my long hours of study: I didn’t have a good night’s sleep, didn’t manage time well and allowed doubts on myself while doing the paper. Sigh… I really hope that my results will not be that bad.

I LOST MY TEXTBOOK straight after the exam!!! I forgot to bring it out and when I realised shortly after leaving the hall, it’s gone! The kind cleaner auntie told me that someone must have taken it. Wonder what anyone would do with a photocopied textbook that has so much highlighting after the relevant exam?! It won’t earn them much if they sell it anyway. Can’t they just leave the book there for me to pick it up? Cheapskate no-brainers…

返咗Hall之後，我冇立刻溫書。我反而去睇別人嘅blog。睇過之後才知道身邊的朋友都非常的沮喪。我唔明白，點嘅做才能鼓勵身邊的人。可笑的喺，我自己亦都需要好多好多嘅motivation。我自己都顧不到，點去激發別人嗻？

突然記得楊千嬅的一首歌：

如果想照耀萬人 請加點信心
如果想抱住情人 請吸取教訓
如果想快樂做人 請敲敲你心
如果可磊落做人 你會更吸引

或許我真的需要敲敲我的心，給自己一點時間檢討自己。              

talked more trash @ 8:24:00 PM

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2 more things to learn during the break: Dreamweaver and Cantonese...

Promettre et tenir sont deux....

talked more trash @ 7:38:00 PM

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6 days to exams... 13 days to end of exams... That's how I motivate myself.

Woke up especially early today to go for tax class. I realised that there are so many things that I have overlooked in my revision! Morale 27.3345% affected.

Luckily qw studied with me later on, else I would really have succumbed to sleeping my afternoon away.

Good luck to me for the exams...

talked more trash @ 12:30:00 AM

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Gosh... Exams do take out the light in many people.

It's a wild paper chase anyway... useful for first few years of the career and that's it. Knowledge gained and examined will become obsolete. But the resilience to large workloads and attitudes towards learning lasts for a long time....

At least that's what I think.

talked more trash @ 2:41:00 PM

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