Found this set of lyrics to Leo Koo’s new album… Really meaningful…

花灑

歌手：古巨基 | 作曲：王菀之
填詞：林夕 | 編曲：雷頌德

為了要博世界讚美便苦惱
害怕永遠也做不到
忘掉了偶爾懶理世界或會更好
期望要有這個與那個像匹布
被剪碎飛舞　盲目了兩眼也但求要拾到

＊何必要做奴隸　無需要為失去了的執迷
　輪流涼或暖像四季　做人做過世
　漫長年月有路軌　人總想擁有東西
　要是代價高　越令心中牽繫
　擔憂要是無謂　拿花灑洗禮 ＊

la………

為了要與某某愛上便希冀
為了挫折過便緊記
全為貢獻過要有報答便有對比
全為看中過發覺看錯便生氣
甚麼叫天理　忘掉奮鬥過要隨緣信命理

Repeat ＊

la……

梳發自在自在齊齊坐
拿去它都總可去站去跑
無謂靠甚麼　何不將一切拋低
志願大過天　亦像世上螻蟻
星星永未流逝　如只可感嘆它美麗
得到也是無謂　負擔高過天際

talked more trash @ 10:32:00 AM

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I’m staying up tonight so that I won’t miss my Business Valuation presentation tomorrow at 8.30am and I thought I might just blog for a while.

Just came back from my run from AMK to Bishan. I think it must be my accumulated lethargy: I ran the distance to Bishan and had to walk back. I was too shag to run back. I wonder how I am going to complete the marathon at the end of the year if I continue like that.

Running is good for you if you need to clear your thoughts, my drama teacher said. I guess it is true to a certain extent. I ran a new route today, enjoying the scenery and new surroundings until I unexpectedly ended up at the place she lives in. I couldn’t continue for the life of me to run the way back, for firstly, I was shagged out, and secondly, I was hoping for the slightest chance to meet her in the vicinity. I guess that I must be a fool to think of that.

I hummed my way back, bursting into new tunes that came to my mind. Being moody and shagged made my creative cells work harder. I thought of many fantastic tunes but I might have forgotten a few since I forgot to bring my MP3 player to record. I guess I will write a song for the investiture next week since they are looking for items to spice it up…

I have told many people that I will be going overseas to clear my mind. Well, for you my friend who is reading this, I can tell you that I am having second thoughts. The gist is that I need a break, and stay un-contactable so that I can rest my mind after so many traumatic experiences. Unfortunately a holiday is a luxurious idea. Many things need my attention still and I am responsible to many people as of yet so it is hard to make a decision to just leave like that. I’ll see how it goes and if I really go, I’ll come back a happier person.

talked more trash @ 2:31:00 AM

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I know you must being sobbing at this minute, for I have withheld from you my true feelings about the entire issue. If you are sobbing, I would like to tell you that I am feeling ten times the pain, coz I have liked you from the start and would have done anything to preserve what you hold dear. I feel very lousy that I am eventually the one that made you cry in the end. I have never felt worse.

talked more trash @ 12:53:00 AM

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I have been cast in doubts for the entire day. Nothing I did seemed right. Think I have broken my personal record of bumping into others in a single day. I taste the bitterness of depression seeping up to me all over again. As much as I tell myself it is not worth it, I can’t help but to dwell in glorious sadness. Maybe this is the best emotion I can use to deal with my present state.

I read the email sent to me as would a pathologist would autopsy a corpse of a murder victim. Is it an apology? Is it another tool to make lock me in depression and self denial? Or is it another game which is forced unto me?

I really do not know.

But I grieve, for the denial of my friends’ hard work; for the depreciation of my sacrifices; for the lost of respect for those I have looked up upon; for the lost of trust amongst friends.

I just hope that I can get well soon.
          

talked more trash @ 3:30:00 AM

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